I share a lot on this blog.
A lot of deeply personal stuff about my own shortcomings, even.
Transparency is not something you’ll find lacking here….
Which is where the problem comes in.
You see, I was a student pastor for a couple of years at a church back home.
There is even a “Reverend” in front of my name in the Baptist circles.
One year was all fine and dandy, and the second year was as Rocky as a Squirrel.
Heh. Rocky…Squirrel…get it? #lamejoke
There was a multitude of reasons why I left that ministry…and very few of them have been talked about here.
And for the most part, I’ve moved on from that chapter…
Though still at times, when I read certain things, or hear certain things, I remember…
Then get frustrated.
And I want to tweet, or blog about it…but, for now, I can’t.
I want to go back, make them listen. Change. Follow.
I want to be a catalyst, an agent for change.
But, again, I can’t.
You see, I was a student pastor for a couple of years.
At this one church.
And that’s it.
That’s the extent of my professional ministry resume.
So, any story I could share in this blog…guess what…it probably happened there.
That was in my hometown, where I grew up, with people that had known me since I was a child…
At least some of them occasionally swing by the blog, means I really can’t tell the whole story.
Though, for some reason, I feel like a huge weight would be lifted if I could.
Or would have been if I had talked about these things to my former church…
Because I never really told them about everything that led to my departure.
Some stories are best left untold, I guess.
And some are best kept silent for a season, to be told at the right time and place.
For me, at least for now, this blog is neither.
So, I was emailing back and forth with a good friend about this predicament.
And he asked one question that I was finding difficulty in answering:
How has it changed the way you live?
Wow. Has it?
At first, I thought, maybe not.
But then, I started looking around.
And I’ve absolutely been changed.
There is less fear.
A more bold proclamation.
Saying and writing things that may be difficult.
No more “its always been done this way Churchianity.”
Remember Michael Bublé’s song “Feeling Good?”
It’s kind of like that.
This old world world is a new world.
And a bold world for me.
It’s a new dawn.
It’s a new day.
It’s a new life for me.
And I’m feeling good.
Did I really just use Michael Bublé as a musical illustration?!
Wow. I suppose it’s time for me to hand in my man card now…
How do you deal with the untold stories in your life?
Have you missed opportunities to speak truth for fear of consequence?
And How has it changed the way you live?
Peace and love.