Fathom.

Wow, its been a while since I’ve written a post.
So much has happened, but still much has remained the same.

Lets just cover some highlights before really getting into why I’m posting tonight.

I officially entered the “late 20s” a little over a week ago and feel like I’m staring 30 in the face.
And I’m nowhere near where I thought I’d be by now.
Mostly in regards to relationships.
The friend scene is amazing for me right now.
God has definitely filled some gaps that I’ve been desperate for for the past several years.
And for now, I can be content with that.
But, still I want more…

The birthday weekend was the Global Impact Celebration at Asbury.
A prayer and mission conference featuring guests and speakers from mission fields all over the world.
And of course, one of my favorite authors, Leonard Sweet.
I spent the whole weekend working as his VJ/Personal Assistant and then he ended up following ME on twitter.
I could probably write a book about just that one experience.
Some great friends later threw me a small surprise birthday party.
And then Sunday several people all went out to eat to celebrate.
BEST BIRTHDAY WEEKEND EVER.

None of that is why I’m writing tonight.

A few weeks ago, I started volunteering with the student ministry at Asbury.
Fathom Ministries.

Some friends of mine on the youth staff have been trying to get me to volunteer for a while, but I’ve balked at the idea.
I’d been out of student ministry for almost a year after all.
(Keep an eye open later in the month for an update on working through that process)
I caved.
One event, and I pretty much got sucked in.

Right now, I’m substituting where needed from week to week.
So, I’ve been with an 8th grade class, a 10th grade class, and am 11th grade class.
And its been amazing for me.

I’ve been partnered with someone every week…well, almost.
I did have the 11th grade guys on my own for about 10-15 minutes on “sex talk” night.
Awkward. Heh. We’re all in the same boat…

Building relationships with those kids has reminded me of everything I loved about student ministry.
And to be able to step in and be part of and speak into their lives without all the pressure of being in charge of everything has been a great way to ease back into it.
Now, I guess I’m questioning how long God will have me serve in this capacity before He is ready for me to (or I am ready to) move on to a new thing.

I got my answer to that last week also.
Not yet.
Because I was reminded with one phone call why I stepped down from student ministry to begin with: the [unnecessary] hassle.
And with that one call, it ALL came flooding back.
All the arguments. All the opposition. All the phone calls I got only when I was either in trouble, said something wrong, or was needed to do something.

Here, I don’t have to deal with that side of it.
Here, I can just minister to the kids.
Here, I can see the outpouring of love and support.

Here, I am free to openly have questions about my own faith.
Because I most certainly don’t have this whole Jesus thing figured out.
I don’t fully have my own calling figured out yet.

I never will.
And I’m okay with that.

Peace and love.

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3 thoughts on “Fathom.

  1. Kyle, we are blessed to have you. I am far from a Biblical scholar, but believe God will reveal His desire for your service, and maybe he has. Last week I was reading Oswald Chamber’s daily devotion, and he talked about doing God’s ministry for our lives. It was not about serving Him, but just doing what He asked of us. My take was much like your best birthday ever was spent meeting Leonard Sweet’s needs, not serving him but doing what he needed done was rewarding, so much more just doing God’s will for us is where we find true fulfillment. God has a plan, if WE (me too!) are just willing to listen and obey! God bless!

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