Timing, II.

Wednesday was a hard night.
There was a good size group of kids there.
But no one could pay attention.
No one could stay focused.
And if they get off track and lose focus, I get off track and lose focus.

Sometimes I wonder if they respect me at all.
Or what it will take to earn their respect.
I’ve never been a stern guy.
I’ve never really had a demanding personality.
Its just not who I am.

We were talking about timing.
About how Jesus shows up just when needed.
And how he offers us help at just the right times.
In the back of my mind, I was wondering where he was.
Because I needed him there.
I needed his help.

It was bad.
I felt like such a failure.
I was brought in to minister to these youth.
I can’t even keep their attention more than a few minutes.

We didn’t even finish the lesson.
The class was so disruptive.
I couldn’t get back control.
I felt like such a failure.

So I stopped.
And the last ten minutes were spent in prayer.
That’s all I could do.

This was the most broken I have felt through this ministry.
And I’m sure this will not be the last time.
And it probably won’t be the worst, either.

But I’ve learned from that experience.
Sometimes we get thrown curves.
Sometimes no matter how much we prepare, we’re totally unprepared.

As I’ve sat and thought about it the past few days…
Jesus showed up.

Through conversations with other people.
Through reading his word.
Through the messages this Sunday.

He gave me what I needed.
He gave me assurance.
He gave me peace.

All in his perfect timing.

Peace and love.

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2 thoughts on “Timing, II.

  1. Don’t be discourage by them. I’ve ripped many of them a new one…….ha! Sometimes they’re paying more attention than you think they are. And it’s ok to get mad and get on to them. It’s a class just like school. If you have to, show’em the door…..they may act like they don’t care, but they do. If I can help, let me know.
    Posted by Erin Celeste on Monday, September 17, 2007 – 3:17 PM

  2. Our church has recently “removed” part of our youth ministry team…whether by force or by resignation I’m not quite sure but it’s safe to say that our two couples have dropped down to one. So all the parents are joining together to be the teen group leaders. So at this point I truly feel your pain. Just remember that no matter what happens in the class, the kids are there. They showed up. Whether you think they “got it” or not (speaking of your lesson) doesn’t matter. They “got” what God wanted them to get. They may have learned that timing is everything. Or maybe they learned the phone number of the new hot chick in the room. Or maybe they learned that you have the patience of Job and the heart of a lion. Maybe they learned that when all else fails, pray. You never know what they take away from a lesson or a meeting or a “hanging out session”. And each person can learn something different from everyone else. What one “gets” from the lesson may not be what another “gets” from the same lesson. As timing is all in God’s hands and in His time, what someone “gets” from a lesson is also in God’s hands and in His plan.

    Hang in there man! I know you’re doing GREAT!! Probably (if I had to guess) much better than you think you are doing. You’re a wonderful guy and I’m proud to know you and call you friend.

    Love you bunches!!! 😉

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